why prostitution is bad: second reason
Yesterday I received an email from "Som", one of our dear bargirl
friends, telling us she had gone to get an abortion last
week. She had discovered she was pregnant, and made a quick
decision.:
It was 1
month old. I just to know the 2nd january I was prenant. My breast look
tight and my friend said I was like pregnant woman cause they say Iam
fatter from before so I buy the tester kit. I teste and itwas positive.
I go see doctor for sure, I was pregnant sure now. Doctor she know I
not ready to keep baby, she ask me to inject the medicine. She say if a
lot of blood come out from me it mean baby is remove. But it will be in
2-10 days. If no blood then procedure in not successful. Iam wait until
8th I go see doctor for find another way. I think you know which way is
that? It was very painful thought it not much like give birth time. But
I feel more painful in my heart, I don,t know how relate to you. I want
this baby and I love not lesser than my another one. But Iam really not
ready.
Som has a delightful personality and a sincere heart. When we first met her I thought she was something of an airhead, but discovered it was only an act for her job, and a cover for years of hurt and rejection by her family. She's actually a bright, deep thinker. I have no doubt that she means what she says.
I don,t
tell father of child but my friend insiste me to tell. I think there
was reason to tell him. And I don,t want him say child was not his. It
might hurt me even more. I understand about my job, what I do, I don,t
want him think like that I want to catch him or want money from him.
And it not his mistake too, we use condom but it broke.
When we think of prostitution we think of men paying for sex. But in the end, it's the woman who pays. This is one terrible way, but not the only one. But I don't care how pro-choice you may be, you can't tell me that any woman should have to go through something like this.
Today my
feeling better than 4 days ago. But some time I feel very much guilty
for what I do. Iam feeling very depress and ashame same time.
It first time for me do like that but my friend told me it normal don't
think too much. I hope soon Iam will forget what I do.
Another young bargirl we know also forced a spontaneous abortion a few months ago. Afterwards, her personality noticeably changed. She stopped talking about quitting that life. She lost her sweetness, became more like a stereotypical prostitute. I'm praying hard that doesn't happen to Som.
I hope
my child and god will forgive me.
